I have a lot of blame in this but the relationship was an odd one. She actually had a boyfriend when I met her, in a week she dumbed him and got with me. Things great for 3 months then drama came out. Her stepdad beats her mom, her moms and everyone else in the house, her dad doesn't give a damn about her, her stepdad has put a gun to her head and choked her. Plenty of things I'e helped her overcome... I don't know too many GUYS that would do as much as I've done. I'm not a bad person I feel as though Im being crusified for my flaws... not by kctiger.

Her mom is a money hungry B***** who didn't care enough to even call her daughter while she was living with me for a whole month. She has money to buy designer cloths but not to send her daughter on a part time best buy salary I paid it all for us.

I cried the whole way home today after I droped off her book, it hurt me to see her with that piercing. I know I do worst but I want better for her you know? I can fix other ppls problems but not my own... amazing isn't it?

The only problems that matter are your own. I know you care for her, but it isn't worth it and it is no longer your place to. You matter the most in this situation, and it is your problems and your own issues that need to be fixed. You CAN and WILL fix your problems. Don't let your mind tell you otherwise. You are letting emotions run your actions. Quit.

You're right, I feel a little better already and although I miss her a lot I no longer second guess my decision. There are pleny of girls out there, in fact one of the personal trainers at my gym likes me, she's 23, I won't even bother to try a relationship at that level. >.< Thanks you so much kc, is there any way I can add you to a friends list or something? Your advice was great. You hit it spot on no sugar coating and kept it impartial. I'm going to stop the everyday pot use and steroid use. I'm sure that I'll feel better once I've detoxed for a while.

Sure, feel free to add me to your 'friends' list. I am going through a tough break up too, so I know how you feel.

Best of luck to you tiger, I know you'll be just fine! I'm off to the gym, take care.

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Originally Posted by Eli2231

The anger today probably came from the anabolic steroids I've been using I also have been smoking pot heavily to ease the depression in part due to her and some probably because of the hormones.

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You need to work on the kicking the POT man

So not good for you.

And probable the main reasons to your problems