I want to sincerely thank everyone for their advice. I know everyone that posted was right about what I should have done. Where it stands now, from what I understand after our conversations tonight is that we are friends that love each other( I know the things I've said make it seem like she doesn't love me but I really KNOW that she does ) We will try to remain in contact as much as possible (not much is going to be possible lol) And she told me that I am free to date/love/be intimate with anyone I choose. Honestly if we truly have broken up on good terms then I think I would have regretted NC for the very fact that she is going to a very dangerous part of the world and if anything were to happen to her I would know that we ended on bad terms... I don't think that I could live with that... In these next 2 years I will try to focus on school 100% just as she is going to be focusing on the peace corps 100%. My hope is we will both mature and when the time comes be able to make the right choice. Again thanks for everyone's support it did not go unused and I think I will be sticking around this forum to see if I am able to help people like you have helped me.