I am working on a similar situation. I know I should trust in the following, but it's really tough , but probably the right path. I try to listen to my head. Listening to your heart can bring you to the point of obsession. Obsession is not love, it is a sickness. Do I love or obsess?? Time is the most precious gift we have and we have already wasted enough of it. Face it. But it's so hard. So hard.