Went to bed and got back up... decided to delete my new email that my GF has because of our mutual friend got from me and then passed it out to her, without my consent.

So now... she doesn't have my phone number unless he gave it to her, email address... neither of them do. However, they know where I work and they could email me there though...

Anyway... im just doing allthat I can to end all contact... :)

:-)

I'm proud of you.

Three hundred and twenty one people have given you advice.

You could write a short story from this,get it printed and help people to understand how the grieving process of breaking up works.

Take a little from everyone ,as I am sure you have and create something good from your experience,pass it on :)

Thanks imtotallylost! And you too artlady... maybe that would be cool huh? Helping out people from my experience. :) I sure as hell don't want anyone to go through what I have... but anyway... tomorrow is another day with more challenges... itll be rough I know because our friend IS going to call me and it will be tough to tell him I don't want ot her any of it.

I hate this. I hate being put in this situation as if I am the bad guy. All that I did was to want to be loved by this woman and for her to let me love her... and we did for 5 years...

And then it all blew up in smoke.

In a way... I feel gulity of leaving her.. if that makes sense... I love her so much that I don't want her to have any pain. And no I'm not a psycho and a massochist... I truly loved her with all my might.

And I really think that she did too but according to our friend she says tha I took too long to do it. So now... she needs to take care of herself and takes the approach that if I am doning this now... then I was the one that didn't want this relationship and hense she has a right to be mean to me... etc...

For what its worth... ive been saying my prayers when I go to bed... hedk by this pointk, I have nothing to lose by asking god to help me out here... adn to trust in what he thinks is the right thing to happpen...

Rambling here...

It makes a lot of sense to feel like being the bad guy. I feel exactly that way. But you can't help it. You're not doing this because you want to. You're doing this because it's the only sane thing for you to do.

Hi... yeah... its the only choice I have... gotta protect myself now. Look out after myself.

Our friend tried calling me yesterday but like I said I had it off... he left a voicemail but I deleted it!

Not sure if I want to talk to him today or not... maybe on Monday. I don't know... any opions out there about what to do?

Being able to step away from a bad situation, and regrouping is a good step. Whether you realize it, or not, your slowly getting a clear head back, and I have no doubt, given time, you'll look back, and be able to see the life lessons this experience has given you.

You will be stronger, better, and much more experienced, in how to deal with your own feelings, and the actions of others.

Sadly your ex is using your friend, to affect you through him, and he mistakenly, has tried to act in your interest, and helping you get her back.

You do need to explain to him, that kind of help is not needed, nor wanted. When he gets it, you will truly be free to heal, because you have cut all contact with her, and you can get to work on you, without her influence.

talaniman... im glad to hear that you think that I am getting a clear head back although slowly.

Yes... I will tell our mutual friend that I don't want to hear about her anymore. Ill say that she knows what to do and its her choice.

To tell you the truth, everyone out there...
Maybe because its been a month since I have seen or spoken to her but although I do miss her- I don't miss her as much. And, I'm starting to feel like she's not real... if that makes sense?

Like she has been a part of my life for so long, but at the same time its as if maybe she's "not here" anymore... I don't know weird feeling.. anyone out there understand me or have felt like this? What does that mean? Wonder if SHE feels the same way...

Also... is she really using him to affect me? What does that say about her?

Comments please...

That she is being a coward; she feels she can't say what she has to say to you, so she is being an imature coward and using your friend as the mediator.

I wonder why she's so afraid to tell me face to face?

Well, everybody... I have a little setback. :( I was going through my email to clean it up and I ran across an email of hers about 3 months ago.. I didn't read it but she attahed a small picture of herself on the header... and I saw it and I thought to myself... "shes so pretty"... miss her... anyway, yeah I know she not on the inside but it did tug at my heart a little.

Any suggestions? I have tons of pix of her... g rated and xxx rated... I would hate to delete all of them since she was a part of my life but I don't know if its good for me to keep them...

Help!

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i wonder why shes so afraid to tell me face to face?

well, everybody...i have a little setback. :( i was going through my email to clean it up and i ran across an email of hers about 3 months ago..i didnt read it but she attahed a small picture of herself on the header....and i saw it and i thought to myself..."shes so pretty"...miss her...anyway, yeah i know she not on the inside but it did tug at my heart a little.

any suggestions? i have tons of pix of her...g rated and xxx rated...i would hate to delete all of them since she was a part of my life but i dont know if its good for me to keep them...

help!

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Delete all the email addresses, msn accounts, myspace accounts, delete the g rated photos, send the xxx photos to me, delete the xxx rated photos.

Put the pics somewhere away from you, not easily accessible to you. Box them up, put them in a really inconvenient place so you won't just go back to them...

Also... anyone have any suggestions on hearing songs that play on the radio? There are a lot that remind me of "US"... she once told me that when we broke up last time, songs came on that reminded her of me... I didn't experience that "feeling" at that time but I am this time...

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also....anyone have any suggestions on hearing songs that play on the radio? there are a lot that remind me of "US"....she once told me that when we broke up last time, songs came on that reminded her of me...i didnt experience that "feeling" at that time but i am this time....

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Actually, I recommend you listen to comedy tapes for a while. They are funny so they make you laugh, and you listen to something else until those songs lose their meaning. You can also change the type of music you listen to.

Anytime you hear a song that reminds you of her, turn to another station, quick. That is what I would do when I would hear a song that reminded me of ex's.

OK... thanx for the tips!!

chuff.. the xxx rated pix are in your email! ;)

Don't post them online, she might see them... jk.

Guys... n gals... our mutual friend just called me... didnt answer... im going to call him back in a few... im going to tell him what I told to you and hope he doesn't blurt anything out or tell me "thats for the best" or any of his commentary. Wish me luck!

Good Luck Crazy! Keep us all posted. We are on your side here.