Another one bites the dust
Hello all
I guess I am like most of you newbies to this site and I most of us are the ones who got dumped or got the confused girlfriends wondering is it them or you. I woke up this morning thinking to myself my world had crushed around me! How will I live without her etc. I think my story is much like any other story out there. I try to give you a very short version,
Me and my girlfriend have being going out for about 10 months but have 3 years of history behind us. I love the girl to bits I really thought she was the one for me. In the last coupe of weeks we had our first fights, I knew something was up but couldn't pin point it. She saves she loves me and cannot imagine life without me. She tried to break up with me 2 weeks ago but could not do it, she came around to mine and cried like a baby for 4 hours. My flatmates thought there was some really weird stuff going on in my room. I should have knocked it on the head then but I wanted it to work with her so much so we got back together. All was good until Thursday we where going to the cinema, I was around hers she was on the phone I told her I would check the time of the flick on her PC in her room. What happened next was something which probably ended out relationship. Her face book was open on a email from this random guy.
Basically for the last 3 months she has being emailing this guy from work, now you may think there is nothing weird here but the emails where at times flirty, he would ask her out for drinks all the time she would always say she was busy. Now I know she would not cheat on me but I know this wrong to be emailing another guy like they where. I confronted her about it and she broke down, lots of tears from here again. I stormed off...
The next day she contacted me to see if I was OK. She thought I was going to do something crazy!! (it would take a really special women for me to do something crazy)
From talking to her for 5 hours yesterday I basically got this; she is very confused right now she said she is very unhappy with her life at the moment and doesn't know why. She is not to sure if she loves me anymore, She said she knew it was very wrong to be emailing that guy but she liked the attention! She says she cannot be without me and in a way loves me more than she has loves anyone else. She said the usual crap its me not you. She said she need time to think about what she wants. After 5 hours of talking we made love probably the best sex we have ever had. I was so confused I don't know where I stand now.She stayed at mine last night while she was in the shower I left. I hate goodbyes..
So we are on a break. What the Fuxk is a break!! With me its simple yes or no, black or white, chalk or cheese. I hate the fact she need to decide if she want to be with me. Shouldn't it be a case of you just know. From previous relationships I always knew deep down if it was going to work. I remember working with the wisest man I ever met, He told me it should be a natural thing and when you met the right one you will just know its right. Not this decisions crap.
I am not going to go off on one I have read the great advice from the previous messages and they made me a small but happier. I have deleted her number all her messages etc closed down my Facebook so she can't be checking what's going on in my life. I am taking the golden rule on board do not contact her for whatever reason. I just keep thinking its her loss(I not big headed in any way). I would take her back in a second but I need to be strong. I went through this before with another ex and was demented over her for 6 months after the break up. I did everything your not meant to call her, write letters etc what a mug I was.I look at her on Facebook and think t myself what the hell was I doing with her I guess love makes you blind. I was so demented I had to get away and ended up going traveling around the world for 2 years (quest for the golden spud :: Main Page) had the best time ever, totally worked!!
Ok so I am sure you have a fair idea of where this relationship is going as I do. I got a small problem next Friday is my mates wedding. Me and my girlfriend/ex where meant to go. She really wants to go, I would love to with her but it may make the situation worse. I think I know what she wants. And its not me, I don't want to go on my own as it will just make think of her all the time..
What do you think.. Should she come with me or should I just cancel the trip?
Thanks for reading I hope it makes sense.
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