Controlling thoughts about food
	
	
		I am a 17 year old girl, I am 5'5" and i weigh 135-ish, i think. I know that I am at a healthy weight, but I hate it! I know that is normal for teenage girls, but I also am waayy too preoccupied by food. I eat something and then think " o wow, another three hours and then I can eat again!" I love food. I love cooking, baking, etc. I eat very healthy, but probably too much, too often. Does anyone have any tips for getting my mind off food? I am so deppressed with my body, and I am tired of it. I've been like this too long. I want to lose weight so badly, I feel so uncomfortable with my size ( size 8) and un-sexy all the time! I don't want to be super skinny, but some days I envy anorexic people so much because of the control they seem to have, and I wish I could be like them, but I don't have the willpower! I would be more than satisfied with a size 6, now how can I get there? 
Also, any motivation tips for exercising? I do exercise, pilates and jogging and lifting weights, but I'm not consistent. I'll have a week or two where I will do it four times a week, other weeks I do next to nothing except be active around the house, which isn't enough for weight loss, I know.
Thanks for hearing me!