Originally Posted by theonenonly
Right now I feel utterly discontent with my life. I feel like I've failed in every way possible so far and I have nothing left to look forward to. I don't know if I'm depressed or not, but I'm very sad with my circumstances.
You see I got a job about 8 months ago, I went into it head on with a very focused mind and I knew my goals. However, I got consummated by my influencing coworkers in a very bad way. I fell for someone on the job and pursued him. Even though I know in my heart the truth of the matter, I need closure. The worst part is I hung out with other eligible coworkers and they do nothing but make me paranoid about the situation, (Are they talking about me? Laughing at me? making fun of me?) I decided to cut them all off and I feel very sad about it now. I don't know who I am anymore. My direction in life is cloudy and I feel like I have nothing to live for. Why have I let this take over my thoughts on a daily basis? I think it's due to the fact that I have very strong feelings for someone and I'm very worried about what they think of me. I haven't been working there for over a month now, and I'm still not over it, or him.
I need to find a way to realize my goals again and to make them come to life. While growing up, my aspirations were all I had, but now, I feel like I have nothing left. I need some very strong inspiration to move on. I need to get through this. Any thoughts?
