Why is he stabbing me in the heart?
I had been together with my boyfriend for 2 years, we have a 10 month old son together. We split up 2 months ago because of his drug addiction, he kept running off on binges every month or so and coming home with an empty wallet and I couldn't take it anymore so I kicked him out. He tried to still be with me, so I told him if he could kick the habit we could work on the relationship. Then he got really cracked out and started pushing me away. So I gave him his space and watched him wither away. When I quit coming around him all of a sudden he wanted me and would do anything to be with me. So I gave him another chance but still didn't let him move back in. As soon as I started trying to make it work again, he started pushing away again. I kept asking him to stop stringing me along and if he didn't want me, let me know. Ok fast forward now to 2 weeks ago, I was doing good, I was getting over him, or at least I thought, I felt better and when I came around him I made sure that I didn't let him get me down. So he started talking about he wanted to still be together. We spent a great night together and I was excited. We promised each other from the beginning of the breakup we wouldn't see anyone else for the time being and would definitely not bring another man/woman around our little boy. So I went over the other night to make him dinner at his house and he come out of the neighbors house with a cup of sugar, (she is the neighborhood ho, she sleeps with his roommate, has a boyfriend, and still messes with both of her baby's fathers) I was pretty pissed off.(by the way they had sugar at home?? ).. so I left and calmed down. Well I went back over last night and his roomates told me he wasn't home, but I went in his room and my kids car seat was in there (he was supposed to babysit him last night) so I knew something was up, I rode down the drive and he come out of her house with my kid (he said my kid was playing with her little girls, but my little boy was asleep:mad: ) Now he tells me to move on, Im so mad, I don't know what to do, I know I should leave him alone but it is so hard when you have a kid with someone and you love them. Plus every time I do leave him alone and start getting over him he weasels his way back into my heart and then just tears me up again. Im so tore up over this, I thought he loved me so why is it so easy for him to be cold to me and treat me like this? All I ever tried to do was help him be a better person by getting off drugs. Does anyone have any advice on how to get over someone you still have to see 2-3 times a week because you have a child with them? Anyone going through anything similar? It hurts so bad I don't know what to do