Something is missing. But what?
Hello my name is Kai and I am 15, a similar question has been addressed before in one of the forums, but I feel my case is a bit different. Before I start I will briefly introduce myself.
I am a very rational person, I enjoy everything to do with science, philosophy and technology, I love gaming and anime, and hope to make a trip to Japan to study in a near future. As a person, people who know me say I am very intelligent and also say I tend to show who I really am and what I feel to very few, and I mean very few, nevertheless I have many friends, and am not the type with a social problem, or anything of the sort.
Just recently, I moved to another country, and even though it's the country my family is in, and I like that very much, I miss my friends a lot, sadly, I think I didn't value them and what I had enough until I was already here and realized how much it really mattered. I know that going back now would be different, and pointless, except for visits. Nevertheless I only regret my not seeing how much I really cared about the people there, and I have only learned from the experience. Also, life goes on, going back is not an option. Here I feel people are way too closed, or maybe its just me, but either way, I have failed to make friends here. What leads me to believe most people I have met here are closed, is the sole fact that the only really good friends I made here, were from another state, and much to my unluckiness moved back to there respective homes last year. Maybe that is a rushed generalization, but it is what I think.
Now to the question. I have along some time now, have the increasing feeling that something is missing in my life, and I have been thinking a lot lately, but I simply do not find the reason, or what it is I'm missing, so that I may pursue it. I have a feeling that what I need, is probably something I do not want to admit I need, but that isn't an answer really. I think it cannot be that this feeling is because I miss my friends, since it had already begun before I moved, and just worsened after,
The reason I have come, is, having found this site, I hope to hear the opinions of other people, and as I have not identified the cause of my unfaltering lack of "something", they might be able to aid me, or help me with their personal experiences, because apparently this feeling I have is absolutely not uncommon in most teenagers at some point.
Thank you all in advance
Sincerely, Kai.
xD ^^
Hope you guys can gimme a hand here :D