My mom was diagnosed last October 29 2004 with pancreatic cancer, she died dec 23 2004. We knew that it was terminal but had no idea how fast she would go. We never had a great relationship but I did love her and no matter when I needed her she was there. Here and my dad had just celebrated their 40th wedding anniversay a few days before. I saw her one last time in the beginning of December and celebrated what would be my last b-day with her. I told her that I was sorry if I was a bad teenager( I got pregnant at 17 and now am 32) and was trying to really let her know how I feel and that I was thankful that she was there for me no matter what. I don't feel like I said enough or did enough and it has been now 4 months since she passed away but every month on the 23rd I am a mess. All I do is cry and don't want to do anything. I do grieve everyday but it seems like those are the hardest days for me. All my husband says is that it will get better, no real I guess you can say shoulder to cry on etc. My 14 year old was REALLY close to her and is having a hard time also. I know it takes time but is this normal, how I feel and what is the easiest way to get over it. I guess it also hits me really hard cause I am hairstylist and her wish was for me to do her hair and makeup so I did but did not expect to see her on the morgue.
Thank you
TIffany