I am unsure of how to deal with life with so much going on and if it is even worth it
Hi first I should explain a bit about what has been happening in my life recently, background info as it were.
I moved out of my parents house 6 months ago due to not getting along with my mum and step dad, my profile explains about my dad. I then moved into a house share which is nice and I live with great people. But I am in a 3rd year at college I had to repeat a year, I try to hold down two jobs, go to college 4 days a week and also have a social life at the same time. A lot of my close friends are either at university or have full time boyfriends. So although I always have friends around me a lot of the time they do not understand me as well as my 'girlies' do. Money is tight so I need my two jobs to keep living and I don't want to move from where I am because I'm lucky where I ended up and do not want to claim benefits from the government. I would see it as almost cheating people out of money that could go on better things. But I have exams coming up now and recently I just feel that everyone lets me down. I have always tried to be there for my friends and appear to be a strong out going person but really I am tired all the time and work and college are suffering. I want to go to university and plan to in September but I am unsure I can get my grades. Any guy I seem to fall for messes me around, my last, behind my back he slept with a supposed friend that I had tried to help out less than 2 days after we had stopped speaking. People just walk all over me and I don't feel like life is worth living, I was out for a night at the weekend soba because money is tight but I also work late. To be honest I thought if this is what life is like I don't want to be here. Please someone help me because I really am unsure of how to deal with this.
Many thanks in advance :confused: