God I wish I could stop ing things up with my boyfriend, its like we get over one problem and I create the next. Sometimes I just feel like god (if there is one) is trying to make a poiint with me. As soon as I mess up I can see stright away what I should have done, if it's that I should have put him before some I didn't know or if I shouldn't of been so bloody dozy! Or explained things better so it didn't look like I was lying. But now he thinks am doing it because I don't care, or that I am just thinking about myself and not us, but that not the case at all I love him with all my heart but I don't think he sees that and I know am pushing him further and further away, with each nexts mess up. Sometimes I really hate myself for it but he just thinks that's my way of getting attention and getting out of it with the “crocadile tears” I feel so lost I just want to be normal. Some times I really think I've git something wrong with me like am slow or something, because I never seem to learn things never seem to go in. and now it got to the point where I know its just a matter of time before he ends it and I have no choice but to except it. I no am annoying and clumsy, but its not because its not my stuff its cz I can't help it, I just wish I ada bit more common sense and could do the right thing instead of the wrong, am just so scared and lost what can I do?

How old are you? Maybe giving things more thought before you do things would help.