Entire lifetime of nightmares
Hello, I am a 54 year old male, living in South Carolina. I have spent an entire lifetime thus far suffering from chronic nightmares. I had constant nightmares as far back as age 4 or 5 in my memory, can still remember some specific nightmares back to the mid 1950s. To my knowledge, I have never experienced anything dramatic in my life that could cause these dreams. I have hideous and often violent nightmares anywhere from 5 to 7 nights a week. In real life, I am a peaceful and calm person, never prone to bad temper or violence, I abhor either trait. I remember the dreams clearly, and have several journals filled with written details and colored drawings, sometimes they stay with me for t he whole day. My longest streak was having nightmares for 5 straight weeks without a break. I do not drink or use illegal drugs. I am at the point where I am afraid to sleep, but can not function without it. I have been on Ambien for over 4 years now, but no, it is not causing the nightmares, been going on so very long. Don't know what else to do, sometimes I just can't deal with it anymore. Life is hard enough, working hard, dealing with health issues (due to age), etc, and then to be tormented every single night by this hades called nightmares. Don't know if these would be considered clues, but I am very left handed, only one every in my family, have always had extreme mind for detail and still have vivid sense of imagination. Would love to know what is really going on with me. Any help would be appreciated. Thanks for your time.
Some of the themes, though they can be of anything: my father (died in 1993), tornados - often, tidal waves - that come out of no where, snakes, mutated animals, violent car wrecks - though I have never been in one. I have been shot and/or stabbed to death numerous times in nightmares, just a taste to think about.