My friend is going to kill himself today
Well my friend is going to shoot himself in the head today. I've known him my whole life and I feel somewhat responsible. Last week I purchased a .22cal rifle for him because he said he wanted it for hunting but I knew what he really wanted it for so I did it anyway knowing I would expect the same from him. He is in a dark place and nothing will change his mind about killing himself. He called me last night and told me not to come over to his apartment or send anybody or he will shoot them.. he said he's writing something and finishing some final things and then he goes on to say he is going to shoot himself in the head at a specific time which I won't disclose. He said if I call the cops more people than just him will die. He told me he loved me as a brother and that I was the only person he could truly trust in this world.. then he said farewell my friend I love you in life and in death...
Good bye.. I love you too I said through tears
But he had already hung up the phone..
I don't know what to do. I know I volunteeringly bought him a shotgun knowing his intentions but if I hadn't he would have just found a more gruesome and painful way of doing it such as hanging or cutting wrists so it was out of compassion for my friend that I did what I did and honestly I would do it again.
I tried for years to get him back to his old self but things have happened to the great man that none of your could ever begin to understand. His suffering was immense and it was torture for me to see him in such a dark depressed place.
Well I don't know I guess I'm looking for insight as my friends time on this earth is nearly at an end, and I will weep long and hard for him and at least tell some of his story so people know.
Good day to you by the way I'm 19yrs old.