How can I find inner peace?
Since I was a little girl, my family has been difficult. My father, an emotionaly and physically abusive alchohalic, has made me scared to come home at night since I was a little girl . My mother, clingy controlling and erratic, and still will not let me move out (I am 19). And now at the ripe young age of 19 I have decided to get married. I've dated plenty of people in my short life and have been in love and in a long term(more than a year each) twice before this and I know its corny but I JUST KNOW it's right. No one has ever been more supportive and giving to me ever before. Don makes me want to be a better person and is always positive even when I feel like giving up. He is my strength and courage, my heart and soul. The problem is, he is currently in Texas in the army. I have already decided to move to Texas with him in August after I graduate from cosmetology school without my parents knowing and we are getting married in 7 days. I need to know, should I feel guilty for this? I feel like I am a dissapointment but I know I want to spend the rest of my life with this man and that if I stay here the abuse will only continue, and I will keep being told that I'll never be able to do anything in life. Even though I feel this is my path am I doing the right thing? Am I a disgrace?