Depressed 21 y.o. trapped in college major. Feels meaningless. Thought of suicide
Basically I got in nyu. Chose business as a major because I was unsure what to do. I'm a junior now and am just as miserable in the business classes as I was freshman year. I did so bad freshman year in business that I could not switch majors. I was trapped. Its sooooo outside my skill set. I have been depressed foir a while. I am o n the verge of failing out.
I am freaking out. Every day I picture myself doing something different, wishing I was someone else. I am unhappy with what I am doing and feel its too late to change. I couldn't switch majors, and if I left the school it would have to be for somewhere not as good. All I wanted was for my parents to be proud of me. All I seem to be is the up child. Even if I do change what I'm doing and as a result am happier, I'll still be crap in their eyes. I feel lost, and lonely and trapped. I don't know what to do. I don't think I could live with myself If I failed out.