I have major major clinical depression, fibromyalgia, anxiety and the list goes on...
My problem is I hate my kids, want a divorse. Do not want their dad caring for them as he doesn't even care for himself, but he will not let them go without a fight. Foster care is a mess. I know some foster parents and wouldn't want them caring for the kids. I do not want them split up and who would adopt 3 kids ages 2, 5, 8, who have a list of their own problems including depression, autism, anxiety. Them being split up would be a nightmare for them.
The decision on my behalf has been made. I can't keep them, I have messed up their lives enough. You are probably wondering if I hate them, why do I care. As with any child, I want them to grow up happy, healthy, loved and well cared for. It isn't my illness talking as these thoughts have been around for years. They get worse, not better!
I don't need any mean words, just neep help coming up with options! AS I feel I am at a loss.
Please help!!
