Can anyone help me with my future ?

Even if I knew you personally, I don't think I could that.

The only person who can do that is YOU!
You have control of your life. You can't change your past but you certainly can plan and control your future ;)

Its very hard ! :confused:

You are in charge of the future for your life. It is up to the choices that you make for your life. No one can predict the future for you. There are many variables.

Work hard at what you want to do. Accept that, in spite of many attempts by yourself to achieve your goals that you will fail many times. Learn to turn the "scars into stars."

To me, life is about honoring and serving God, the choices that I make, cost and benefit, and dealing with the cards that I have been dealt.