Hurting, confused, and annoyed...
So because of our financial difficulties that we are encountering during this time, my husband and I are not currently living together. I do honestly believe that being apart from each other is putting a strain on our relationship. We constantly argue, and it feels as if we are slowly drifting further and further apart. He's constantly worried about what I'm doing and I'm doing the same thing. He now has this little female friend, that he claims to have never had any sexual relations with, following him around when ever she catches up with him. I don't like it and I've told him that plenty of time's. Now he's gotten to the point where he's lying about if he has seen her, but I always find out. I asked him the other day if he's developed feelings for her and he did say of course not but that he does care about her cause he feels sorry for her. But whatever... Since our little hardship he's gotten lazy, quit a good job so now he's back working at the labor hall barely making it. Oh and get this... im always making sure that when I have money he gets half off top no matter what, but when he got his little check last weekend I had to beg him to give me some money. And he still never did give me any! I know that seems so small but its these little things that matter. And us women never forget the small stuff.
Anyway, he's just different, weird. I used to be so sure of his love for me, now I'm not so sure. He constantly tells me that he loves me and cannot imagine spending his life without me, shows me affection sometimes when he's in a good mood, but I still have my doubts.
We have one child together, both of our first, and we are planning on getting married soon. Our relationship is 5 1/2 yrs strong and I really want to make it 95 more yrs! How do we move forward from something like this? This isn't the end right? I'm not going to be like so many other women and have multiple baby daddies. This has to work. What do I do? If I keep harassing him over this girl I may drive him right into her arms! Help!
~*~Da$aNii <3 ~*~