Suffering with sever anxiety
PLEASE can somebody help me!!
I am 23 years old and as long as I can remember I have always been the same. I have negative thoughts all the time, I can never see the good in anything! I am always really really tired and have no energy. I am not working at the moment and the thought of getting a job scares me so much! I just think how tired I am now and can't imagine being able to cope!! I always have tense muscles. I cannot concentrate on anything and find it really hard to have a conversation as I am constantly thinking that I look/sound stupid to them. I am a very very jealous person and can be really demanding. I lose my temper so easily. I know that all these things are symptoms of anxiety. Its really getting me down, I feel like I am going crazy, its taking over my life.
I moved to Mallorca, Spain about a year ago as my boyfriend lives here. Since then I feel like I am just getting worse and worse. I have no friends, I am trying to learn spanish but seem to be getting nowhere. I would rather stay at home than go anywhere because if I have to go somewhere I feel so overwhelmed. I really want to see a doctor and talk over my options but I cannot go to a doctor here as I don't speak spanish!! I feel stuck.
I am constantly looking on the internet at what I can do and everyone says the best thing is counseling, but like I said I am not working and have no money and I live in a country where I cannot speak the language.
Please can someone help me. I just don't know what to do. I feel so alone. I have no one to talk to just my boyfriend and Im sure he must be tired of listening to me whinging all the time. I can't live like this anymore. Please can someone tell me what to do.