Ask Me Help Desk - Confused about Life

For the past year, I've been feeling so lost/confused, frustrated, depressed and anxious everyday. I have a good amount of negative thoughts that also comes along with my feelings. I am not in school anymore (I am a homeschooled high school student) because I was feeling really anxious, an eating disorder/body image problems (I feel strongly disgusted/humiliated of my body and guilty about everything I eat even though I don't eat a ton), low self-esteem about myself (wish I was a different person:(), suicide planning and attempts of cutting wrists (I'd be better off dead anyways), and just feeling plan crappy. I have a history of emotional bullying when I was about 13 years old in middle school and I keep looking back at how I was as a person and feel miserable that it was like that for me... and I have a difficult time trusting people my old age because of that also. It would really be nice if someone could help me out with my feelings or relate to me. That means a lot to me, thanks.

Have you spoken to your parents about your feelings. They can get you to talk to a professional

You should go see a therapist because you are like my sister. My sister cut her wrists and she now goes to a therapist and a doctor that gives her medicine and figured out that she is bipolar. You should see a therapist because I don't want you to hurt yourself and you belong here.

With serious issues, you need to see a professional in your area. What plans are your parents making to get you help.

Do you talk to your parents about this ? You must be 16 and at this age don't you have friends around you ? And why are you so emotional ? Please give the details to help further.

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Do you talk to your parents about this ? You must be 16 and at this age don't you have friends around you ? And why are you so emotional ? Please give the details to help further.

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Yes, my mother knows everything because I tell her everyday what I'm thinking and feeling and my father and other family members do not fully understand what it's like to feel like in a slump. Even though my close family members know that I am struggling and having a lot pain, they still don't really understand how it really feels to be as depressed and anxious as I am daily--which frustrates me. But luckily I have a family who loves me and does their best to care for me.

And yes, I'm a 15 year old female (almost 16) and all the true friends I have or have had I have seen since I was in public elementary school (so we hardly ever get in touch anymore) and the people I knew throughout junior high and beginning of high school were never really true friends, they were just the people/students I hung out with most of the time there. All of them decently nice (I'm talking about the people I 'knew'), but there were not very loyal compared to my 'true' friends from when I was younger. So now (because of that), it's very difficult for me to trust people to become my close friend(s) because they might stab me in the back and befriend me, which I DO NOT want to happen.

To be honest, I am a hypersensitive person whose moods swing all the time from happiness, anger, then to depression (but not in a Bipolar way). I am extremely self-critical to myself (internally and externally) but I don't criticize anyone else. I can be so cruel to myself, doubt myself all the time, and feel very self conscious when out in public (which makes me start feeling awkward), and all that contributes to my low-self esteem. It can feel more worse some days or either less worse, it varies. It's like an endless cycle of emotional torture, all day and everyday--I hate it so much I lock myself in my room all day to cry and sort myself out. I also sometimes scream when no one is around to feel less distressed. It's like therapy to cry or scream, which is a relief.

This should give more details I hope. Also, thank you.

Moonlight17, are you in counseling? It is apparent that you need therapy from a licensed therapist.

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Yes, my mother knows everything because I tell her everyday what I'm thinking and feeling and my father and other family members do not fully understand what it's like to feel like in a slump. Even though my close family members know that I am struggling and having a lot pain, they still don't really understand how it really feels to be as depressed and anxious as I am daily--which frustrates me. But luckily I have a family who loves me and does their best to care for me.

And yes, I'm a 15 year old female (almost 16) and all the true friends I have or have had I have seen since I was in public elementary school (so we hardly ever get in touch anymore) and the people I knew throughout junior high and beginning of high school were never really true friends, they were just the people/students I hung out with most of the time there. All of them decently nice (I'm talking about the people I 'knew'), but there were not very loyal compared to my 'true' friends from when I was younger. So now (because of that), it's very difficult for me to trust people to become my close friend(s) because they might stab me in the back and befriend me, which I DO NOT want to happen.

To be honest, I am a hypersensitive person whose moods swing all the time from happiness, anger, then to depression (but not in a Bipolar way). I am extremely self-critical to myself (internally and externally) but I don't criticize anyone else. I can be so cruel to myself, doubt myself all the time, and feel very self conscious when out in public (which makes me start feeling awkward), and all that contributes to my low-self esteem. It can feel more worse some days or either less worse, it varies. It's like an endless cycle of emotional torture, all day and everyday--I hate it so much I lock myself in my room all day to cry and sort myself out. I also sometimes scream when no one is around to feel less distressed. It's like therapy to cry or scream, which is a relief.

This should give more details I hope. Also, thank you.

You need "Counsling for Depression" Therapy, which will help you to motivate yourself it will moderate your form. It will relocate everyday stress & give you a positive feelings !

At this age (15) whatever you feeling this is the best therapy you can have for yourself.
And get back to normal life, you are too young and you have to face many things in life. Just get this therapy. Do not leave your parents, I am sure after this therapy you will be all good.
Bless you.

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Yes, my mother knows everything because I tell her everyday what I'm thinking and feeling and my father and other family members do not fully understand what it's like to feel like in a slump. Even though my close family members know that I am struggling and having a lot pain, they still don't really understand how it really feels to be as depressed and anxious as I am daily--which frustrates me. But luckily I have a family who loves me and does their best to care for me.

And yes, I'm a 15 year old female (almost 16) and all the true friends I have or have had I have seen since I was in public elementary school (so we hardly ever get in touch anymore) and the people I knew throughout junior high and beginning of high school were never really true friends, they were just the people/students I hung out with most of the time there. All of them decently nice (I'm talking about the people I 'knew'), but there were not very loyal compared to my 'true' friends from when I was younger. So now (because of that), it's very difficult for me to trust people to become my close friend(s) because they might stab me in the back and befriend me, which I DO NOT want to happen.

To be honest, I am a hypersensitive person whose moods swing all the time from happiness, anger, then to depression (but not in a Bipolar way). I am extremely self-critical to myself (internally and externally) but I don't criticize anyone else. I can be so cruel to myself, doubt myself all the time, and feel very self conscious when out in public (which makes me start feeling awkward), and all that contributes to my low-self esteem. It can feel more worse some days or either less worse, it varies. It's like an endless cycle of emotional torture, all day and everyday--I hate it so much I lock myself in my room all day to cry and sort myself out. I also sometimes scream when no one is around to feel less distressed. It's like therapy to cry or scream, which is a relief.

This should give more details I hope. Also, thank you.

I'm just like you, been struggling with this for 15 years. I am 31 now. I was seeing a licensed therapist but I can't afford it anymore. It was helping me tons. You may have a mood disorder. Some mood disorders can be helped through therapy alone, and some you may need meds. I'll be praying for you. Get help fast. Don't wait as long as I did. We only have one life. You are worth it :)