I am 56years old.I meet girlfriend oversees 4 years ago.I took unpaid time off to see her as much as I can.I have gotten sick and have had 8 months off work so far.I get sick thinking about going back to work.I find myself getting very lazy.Not thinking straight.Not sleeping,not eating healthy. I went to doctor,told him about the bad headaches and the flu like pains all over my body.Had a lot of blood test and found nothing.My job has been keep open for me.But I hnow as soon as I go back I will get fired.I live alone and my savings are getting low.I am thinking of selling my house and move overseas.It is a lot cheeper to live there.

Is there a question here? I am not sure what you're looking for but I can tell you it sounds like you are fighting depression.

You act like you can simply decide you want to live in another country and move there. Well you can't, they ALL require you to get a VISA. Most of them require you to have a job and a sponsor... but it is far from anything like moving to a new city or state... and its not cheap. You MIGHT get permission if you apply, but you have to do that first.

I've done it twice... first time it was over a job.. but it didn't allow me to remain there after the job ended... adn the second time I actually had a legal right to live and work their indefinitely because I had all the paperwork needed.

I agree with Odinn7, your real problem here sounds like depression and needs to be treated.