I'm 24 and have been using narcotics for about the last 3 years.. it happened after I was admitted into a hospital for 4 months for anorexia, had a still birth, lost my best friend to my fiancé, but I left him because I found out he was a chomo after 7 years. I lost my job at hooters for not having my image standards up to corporate needs, and my house, on the verge of losing my car, and my mom was about to have my baby brother and there was a 75% chance if she didn't terminate the pregnancy immediately her and the baby would die! My mom had my little brother in June of 2010 and they both were perfectly fine except my brother was born with zellweggers syndrome and wouldn't live past one year.. well what do you know?. he lived to be 3 and a half and past away November of 2013.. I'm barely hanging on by a limb. I'm bipolar,paranoid skitzophrenic, and I take a anti psychotic for racing thoughts. I'm constantly depressed, scared, and now I have absolutely no confidence. I'm broke as a joke but need advice on what steps I need to take, to build self confidence and get a job and get more involved with my family, and have a normal life. I need to take advantage of health benefits and make m family at least somewhat proud of me for once. I don't know what I'm really asking I just know I also need help getting healthy again but as cheap as possible and I'm pretty picky! Any help would be grateful.