Two years ago, I started to develop a crush on one of my friends that I had lost touch with over the years but had recently started talking to again, Michael. Then, Michael developed a crush on my friend Sammy and she liked him back so I decided, why not help them get together? I mean, if Michael's happy then I'm happy, right? So I got them together and I was super happy and proud of myself and they lasted almost a year, all the while I still liked him, but I was okay with him not liking me. Then that June I moved to Tennessee and Michael and I started to text back and forth every day for hours. Sammy eventually broke up with him and afterward, I noticed that I still had a crush on him. Still. We kept texting and over a year later, his texts are becoming less frequent and our conversations are a lot shorter, and I find myself not really knowing what to say to him. I end up texting him first most of the time, and sometimes I'm scared that I'm creeping him out or that he finds it annoying how often I try to contact him. I literally find no guy in Tennessee attractive and I find myself thinking about Michael like, all the time. I feel a little sad that we don't talk as often as we used to, and I haven't found a single guy here even mildly attractive or interesting since I'm always comparing guys to Michael. I fantasize about having a relationship with him and being cute together and whatnot, and I think about him a lot. I seriously doubt that he has any feelings for me and I have like a -200% chance of ever having a relationship with him. He keeps asking when I'm going to visit and he's said that he wants to see me, so at least he misses me, right? So, do I still like him or do I just like the idea of him? Am I obessed with him? Should I just give up on him and settle for being an angry dog-lady? I've always had trouble with getting over people, I get hung up on guys easily. This is really starting to annoy me, like, why can't I just give up on him? Gah.
