I'm 17 and I struggle with a lot of depression and self loathing as well. I have a lot of problems at home, my mom is a whore who puts all these random men before her children. I've been raising my younger siblings my whole life. I have a boyfriend who loves me a lot but we fight a lot, and a lot of it has to do with my emotional problems. I feel like there's no way out.

You do know life is what you make it. Meaning if you instigate things... you can expect to have a lot of problems. If you aren't happy doing everything someone else tells you to do... you can assume they aren't going to be any less happy doing what you are commanding they do.

This is the cause of many issues. I can't comment on who is the root of the fighting between you and your boyfriend, but its either one or the other, or both of you. And if you are fighting a lot... you really don't have much of a relationship with him. A RARE dispute isn't uncommon... frequent ones indicate major problems... and major problems in a relationship like that can't be overcome. It's a waste of time even trying. Time to find a new boyfriend... maybe the next one will be a beter match.

As far as your mother... we only have your side of the story. And Unless she actually works as a prostitute... then that characterization you make of her is perjurative... and grossly disrespectful.

I'm very sorry you are having these issues. It is plain that you have not had a healthy childhood. Much of what you are having to work through is the result of the choices of others. However, you are now, as Smoothy said, approaching the point of being able to make your own choices. Choose wisely. You are sowing seeds that will grow and someday produce fruit. Do not live for today. Live for next week, next month, next year. My view is to read and believe the Bible. Best source of wise choices I know of.

You call your mom a whore, in an open forum, on the world wide web? Really?

If you suffer with depression, and you are self-diagnosed as it seems to be, it sounds like you direct all that is wrong with your life, on your mother's shoulders, and you are wallowing in somebody else being responsible for you, your life, your 'depression', and for being stuck in this place.

I take it there is no father in the picture?

If you need to talk to someone, perhaps see if you can't get counseling to deal with your anger. The anger you present here, is what is driving you. There are no magic words or solutions or pills to suddenly change your life to one of sunshine and lollipops.

No one gets through life unscathed. Everyone, every single one of us, has lived through difficult times, and wallowed in self pity, and placing blame for consequently feeling it is the fault of everyone but ourselves. It should be temporary, to think this way, and with maturity, you will understand that.

But, again, if what is causing you to feel this way, IS clinically diagnosed depression, then I urge you to follow through with counseling and any medication prescribed.