I have been bullied since grade 4 I've lost all my confidence and I am 14 now, I have tried to gain confidence, these past few months (6-5) I have dealt with break of friendship, people who I could say I could trust I trusted and was broken into pieces, I've seen a counsellor but I lied I said everything was fine I just can't talk to anyone not even my parents, I am easily upset, I've noticed that I've been depressed for a while now, I've stopped enjoying stuff that I enjoy, I'm eating less (not lost any wieght or gained) when I feel pain (not self harm) I don't really do much its hard to explain , I've been used a lot in my life, I'm never positive I'm always talking about negativity.not happy at home or school, can't stop thinking about my past (friendships) , I'm always nervous, always moving my hands and etc, I really can't talk to anyone about my issues but I know if I don't tell one day ill end up regreting it, I don't feel comfortable talking tomy friends because got like none that I can trust, nothing can really change my mind :/ whenever I try and be brave to post this or talk to someone I just close it or say don't worry. I don't know what to do anymore

Sorry for the errors can't sleep.

A place to start is to show this thread to your parents.

Sometimes when we can't find words to verbalize our needs and concerns, writing them down helps. Then when you have problems talking to your parents or to the counselor you can give them the 'list' to read. After they have read it, they can ask you questions based on what you wrote instead of generic questions.

Asking for help is a huge first step. Many people much older than you balk at taking it, but you did. Let that thought prop up your confidence enough to show this to your parents.

You recover, you get treatment and you solve problems in your life. You do not do this on your own.

You stop lying to a counselor whose job it is to help you.

You start being honest with your parents, whose job it is to help you.

I agree, showing this thread to parents, but also to counselor, who is also trained to help.

I have to agree with the others. Stop lying to your counselors, and find a way to talk to your parents. Why do you lie? Why can you not talk to your parents? What's going on?