I've been dating a guy on and off since I was 12 or 13. We've had a lot of really good times, but a lot of obstacles as well. He's been around for a very long time, and I grew very attached to him. We broke up for the third time about a month ago. The relationship hadn't been healthy, but he fills my thoughts more often than anything else. I feel really alone, and I just want my best friend back in my life. It isn't so much the break up that's bothering me, it's some of the things that happened while we were dating that I can't get out of my head. I have to go to therapy in a few days and I'm extremely nervous. I've been very depressed (it was partially a reason we broke up) and I don't want a psychologist to omit me for severe depression or anything.. I feel like I can't really let the relationship go..