Is my boyfriend of 10 years bored with me?? Please help
We started when we were 18 years now I'm 28. We have been having a long distance relationship for two years. We are of different religions while his parents are strictly against us getting married, mine have been quite supportive, and we are to be married soon. Though he says he ll get married to me, he has been delaying it for a while and finally took a stand after my parents called him, but now he ignores me and takes me for granted. He never answers my calls, he says that he would call back in a minute, but he usually doesn't. I have to call like a maniac before he takes pity on me and picks up, yet when I stop calling him altogether he calls back after few days. Once even even two weeks. We fight so much that we have begun to start questioning our future. These days he says he feels like a traitor cause he would be cheating his parents if he got married to me. If I ask him to get out of my life, he calls me again. What should I do??
Where did I go wrong?? / please help
He was my best friend of 10 yrs and then so much more. Our relationship took its first beating when joined separate colleges to do our post graduation. Soon after he seemed to be smitten by a girl whom he described to me as an angel. He used to spend so much time with her calling her at night while avoiding my calls and attempts to talk to me which he admitted to me later. I even saw texts which he had sent her calling her baby and telling her she was really attractive, around the same time I caught him flirting with a couple of girls on FB. I saw messages he had sent again calling them endearments. Telling them that I am a possessive girlfriend that he would have hooked up with her if it hadn't been for me. He also lied about us being on the verge of break up though he had given me no indication. I was heartbroken. I never thought he was even capable of such behavior. When I confronted him he apologized, said it meant nothing, but just wanted to flirt to make him feel better about himself as he was in a new place under a lot of stress. I decided to let things go. This was two years ago.
In the last year we had great times together. Once when he came to visit me, and twice when I visited him in his college. He's so caring and loving to me when we are together showering me with expensive gifts and affection. He has even helped me financially when I was short. Then I forced him to get married to me. We were to elope as his side is dead against getting married to me. which was a big mistake, but it was important for me to legalize this. He agreed but then he started avoiding me even more he wouldn't call me everyday. Maybe like once in three days, he said he was busy. If I tried to call him he wouldn't pick up. If we had an argument he would switch off his phone, called me a psycho cause I used to keep calling until he picked up, but I was so hurt I wanted to cling on him.
He said he feels like he s cheating his parents and that me acting like this is making him regret his decision. My self esteem hit an all time low. I tried to give him space by not calling him. He would call back after about 10 to 14 days, but even those were so half hearted, so I called it off, cut him off, and changed my number since two weeks. It just wasn't feeling right, but I feel so damn lonely and bereft without him by my side. Just hearing his voice would make my day brighter and like everything would be all right. He was my biggest strength. I am hardly able to make it through the day, cause I was so emotionally, physically, and materialistically dependent on him. I don't know how I'll make it through this life. I know I was far from perfect, maybe I didn't give him enough space, but I did love him, and has always been faithful to him.
As pathetic as it sounds I secretly hope he comes for me. I don't think I can live without him in my life and I don't think I can ever be happy again.
