I'm 17 years old and I'm a female. I have been on and off medications since I was 8 and since I was 14 I have had symptoms of being bi polar I have done my research on bi polar and I match up to the mania stage of bi polar I will get depressed and feel worthless and spend large amounts of money on things I usually wouldn't buy and cannot afford and I will get so angry and annoyed with people and I will push people away and not realize I have done it until afterwards and I will have ambitious plans and ideas and it will all get worse when my period starts to come around. I have smoked marijuana because it seems like the only thing that will keep me from going through all of the motions, I really need help because no one will listen to me.