He's Worse Than Me Part 2
Hi all,
So this thread pertains to my last entitled "He's worse than me". By the way, thanks for your advise Krs, it kind of cleared my mind up a little, but now I just don't know.
So a couple of days after my last thread my company had a fallout with his and they were pretty close to losing our account, I'm pretty much the only reason they didn't, but he doesn't know this. So after that incident he was all of to me, me being the kind of person that I am, I went out with some other guy over this past weekend, a co-worker of his, and he knows, he's the one that introduced us online and got us talking, but he wasn't happy at all!! His reason being that this other guy is too young for me.
I spoke to my friend today, and we seemed to get along really well again, after him being so distant and us not talking about anything other that work for the past like 2 weeks or something (it felt like a really long time). We chatted and everything seemed great or at least back to the way it was. He eventually told me that the reason he is so upset and disappointed by me seeing this other guy is that he knows that I can do so much better and this guy is not right for me and everything like that.
So now I don't know, we're getting along but now he keeps telling me that this other guy is so wrong and everything, I'm not interested in anything serious with his co-worker, he's just a lot of fun to be around, which I needed coz' I went through I bit of a rough patch.
I don't know, do I close the door and leave everything from here on up to him or do I try a new approach? I still don't know that I like him as anything more than a friend, but I know that I care about him and think about him, and I take his opinions to heart, which I don't often do. He however, still maintains that I could never be interested in him and he doesn't want me to hurt him and he's not what he seems blah, blah, blah. Aren't we all like that? Coz' I know I am!
The thing is, I don't often get close to people, I don't have very many good friends and I don't let many people see the 'real' me very often, but he's one of the one's that I have. I don't even really like spending time with many people, but I, on numerous occasions, put off my plans and sat on the phone to him all night, I know I feel something and whatever it is it means a whole lot to me. So I guess in a way I'm afraid that this is his way of rejecting me, saying all this to cushion the blow. The more I think about it the more confused I get...
Help... Maybe there'ssomething wrong with me and the problem isn't with him. I don't know, I reckon I'm so messed up right now, and I'm not even sure that I know who I am anymore. I think I'm just going to post a new thread coz' this is going off on a tangent.
Thanks for the best advice.