Help for depression--feeling worthless
I am a 53 year old woman, married, 2 teens. Been going through a really rough time for quite a long time. We are in debt (my fault), and I can not get a job that lasts to save my life. It doesn't help that we live in an area with high unemployment. I have been searching for going on 2 years now, have briefly held a couple of caregiver type jobs that didnț last. I have done customer service/receptionist jobs in the past but no one around here wants to hire someone my age, it seems, and I have been out of the workforce for a number of years raising my kids which also doesn't help. My sense of self esteem is zero. Seems like everything I do is wrong. I lost my favorite cousin unexpectedly last year, and my mom died last year too. I feel like a hampster on a wheel... going round and round, nothing changing, nothing improving. I need someone to talk to. My husband blames me for our financial mess (understandbly). I want to just die but I know that is not a solution either. Can someone out there give me something to hope for?