Conplications with my best guy friend..
I've been best friends with a guy for four years now. From the moment we met, it was obvious to me and everyone else that it was love at first sight for him and its been that way ever since, but not really that way on my part. He has always been there for me no matter what, through breakups and deaths in my family and everything else possible. Also, he's always put me before anyone else in his life, even if he had a girlfriend. I've always felt bad for not returning the feelings, but I made sure he knew I didn't like him in that way.
But now, I've recently moved to a state that is twelve hours away and its been taking a toll on the friendship. We don't talk nearly as much and when we do, it seems like he doesn't even want to talk to me. I asked him about it, and he told me he gave up, now that he knows he no longer has a chance at all. It really hurt me, and I feel like he wasn't in it for the friendship at all, he was only looking for a relationship and he doesn't care about the friendship itself at all.
And to complicate things even more, before I moved I started to have feelings for him, and I still do , but only a little. I think about what would happen if we were together a lot, but I'm afraid to tell him because I don't want to get his hopes up since I live so far away and I'm afraid if we do date and things don't work out, that I'm going to lose my best friend.
What should I do? What if I tell him my feelings, and by time we can be together I lose my feelings for him ? What if my feelings for him are because I feel bad for never returning the feelings ? Please help