My dad got custody of me but I am miserable
When I was 4 I didn't like my sis so I thought I would live with my dad and at the time, so I waited till I was 7 to move in with him. He had just gotten married 2 yrs before to my step mom who I thought I loved but as soon as I got he as a mom I fell off cloud nine and hit the concrete and died 1 thousand times and it was worse than I thought it was going to be because I had gotten a little bro 1 yr before then 1 yr after that I got a little sis and then I fell off cloud nine 1 thousand times again. And I am 12 yrs old and before I get into high school I want to live with my mom. Sometimes I feel like I just want to kill myself or start my life all over and be reborn and fix the mistake of ever meeting my dad when I was 2. I tried talking to them about it but [step] won't get off her ING phone long enough to breath she tells me not to be the mother of her kids but the only reason there bad is because they won't atition from there mother. I need some help [step] slaps me across the mouth I have been grounded from my computer for 2 yrs and the only time I can get on it is when [step] is gone I only see TV when my little bro or sis is watching something and I am not doing the laundry or dishes or floors or bathrooms or bedrooms. I see my mom 3 times out of the year and 2 of the times is 1 week and that is it. Non of my friends can come over because they like to have fun and be silly. All I want is to live with my mother once again in 1 yr hopefully without having to go to court. CAN ANY ONE HELP ME AND IF YOU CAN PLEASE HELP I MADE A HORIBLE MISTAKE AND I WOULD LIKE TO UNDO IT ANSWER BACK ASAP BECAUSE I WAKE UP EVERY MORNING WISHING TO BE DEAD AND IF NO ONE HELPS ME I SWEAR I WILL KILL MYSELF. SO PLEASE CAN ANY ONE HELP ME??