My boyfriend says I'm beautiful but every time I see myself I just see an ugly , and fat pig. I have been called ugly and fat since I was little so now that's all I see when I see myself. I tried to always avoid any mirrors or taking photos of myself because I don't want to see me or the way I look because I know I look horrible to the point I just want to cry. I have considered plastic surgery and everything else if only I had the money to be able to do that so I could be pretty.I wish I could just wake up one morning and be pretty and skinny like everyone around me, but that's not possible. I don't know what to do anymore I'm so tired of feeling so ugly and fat

They just did a study where an artist drew women as they described themselves and all the drawings were much uglier than they actually were. Also from what I see any more most guys go for the bigger women.

First what is your idea of beauty ?

What is your height and weight, that will tell if you are over weight or not.

Most people who are normal weight think they are fat.

Also hair design, and clothes can change a persons look.

But it is very very possible that you are beautiful but just have a poor self image. Counseling to like yourself may be the better use of money. People who do plastic surgery normally want more and more and they are never happy

You are unhappy with your looks in general and your weight.

What are you doing to change things?

If it's a weight issue, how are you trying to get a more acceptable weight?