My boyfriend thinks that I`m boring. He doesn`t like to spend time alone with me and prefers to hang out with other 'fun' girls. We have great sexual chemistry but I`m afraid that its still not love although we have been dating for almost two months now. I can`t stop him from regularly speaking to these other girls because they are mutual friends and so I just appear jealous. I try to act friendly and join in conversations but its just not me. I`m a quiet person by nature so I don`t appear as fun. I think he admires these girls and flirts with them although he has been faithful to me.
He gets insecure when I speak to his best friend because his ex cheated on him with his ex best friend. I want to keep the spark in our relationship but I think its slowing slipping away. He thinks that I am pretty but I don`t believe so... I don`t know whether to blame my low self- esteem for my personality and my boyfriend`s boredom. I think that I`m falling in love with him... I want him to be mine. I`m just scared of losing him because he treats me with respect and is very caring. I just want to be perfect for him like when he tells me to dress sexily, I do because all the girls he knows are absolutely gorgeous and I just want to look good for him so that I don`t embarrass him. I want this to work so badly...
