I lost my boyfriend on the 19th of march this month he overdosed on drugs .im pregnant with his baby I'm so upset I don't know what to do with myself I miss him so much and I feel guilty .as we split up before I found out the bad news I just want to know if he blames me .I feel like its my fault I don't know I I'm going to cope by myself now he's gone I so want him back why did god take him away from me.

What am I supposed to I want to know he still loves me and doesn't blame me help .I want to know he's a t peace and watching over me.:confused:

Kiawoowoo, you cannot blame yourself for someone else's actions. Nigel didn't purposely OD, did he? Give me a little more background information on your situation and I will try my best to help.

How could he blame you for something you had no control over? You cannot put that kind of pressure on yourself. You loved him - you know you loved him. Keep his memories alive in your mind and try to be the best parent you can be.
I'm sorry for your loss.

None of us has control over the lives and the will of another. You no more caused this, than you can control the sun rising in the morning.
People sadly OD on drugs on a regular bases because they use drugs, this is their personal choice of life style.

And his choice for good or bad is over now, his life ended but those of us left, have to live on

And you will always havev a part of him with the baby, So his life goes on though that child. So now you need to make sure you are getting the care to be sure the baby will be fine.
The pain of loss never goes away, but time lets us handle things better.

Awww, sweetie, your breaking up with Nigel did not MAKE him overdose. Please stop blaming yourself. In my opinion God didn't take him away. Nigel's actions and bad choices took him away. He was troubled well beyond your breaking up with him.

I know it seems almost impossible now, but you will get through this. I remember when my husband died someone said to me, 'It DOES get better.' I didn't believe it but one day I realized that it was slowly getting better.

I am sure that he doesn't blame you, sweetie, and I am equally as sure that he is at peace (how could he not be, in God's hands?) and will be looking down upon you as you raise your child. Make him proud, hun... make him proud. Show him that you loved him by taking the very best care that you can of yourself and the coming baby.

Do you have anyone to talk to or give you support? If not there are crisis lines in almost every state that you can call and talk to someone. If you are really troubled then go to the emergency ward of a hospital and tell them you need to talk to someone about a mental health issue.

Try to surround yourself with people and things that can make you feel happier.

Warm hugs,
Didi