I feel like... nothing right now. I'm confused. Why do I have to go through being used and heartbreak? Why do I have to be bullied? Why in general? I just wish I was happy all the time. Kris is too old and says we're "good friends" but I want more. Josh says we're "friends" but mainly all he wants with me is sex. Same with Dylan. These are just guys that are my friends. I promise. I honestly don't know how to deal with this anymore. At least Kris wants more than sex... At least he actually wants to be my friend and not just . I honestly just don't know anymore. Please help...

Guys will use you if you come off as easy. Don't have sex with them. For them there isn't really an emotional attachment like you seem to be having. From your other post it says you are 15. Enjoy being a kid because that's what you are! You don't need a guy to be happy you need to find that happiness within yourself.

You asked this right after writing your other question. It's best to keep them together. Have you read the responses yet?
Could you be sleeping with all these guys as an empty hearted rebellion against your parents? Sure, you can 'punish' them this way, but mainly you are hurting yourself.
Women's lib hit a stage that got all twisted around. Women decided that anything goes as long as they chose it. Hence friends with benefits and all sorts of callous, casual sex that most women, especially teens, can't handle. Back off sex and get a sense of who you are, and where your integrity lies, and yourself worth. TELL them so.

Seems like people are taking you for granted. Don't let them. Stand for yourself. Enjoy other things like hobbies, sports, games etc. don't depend emotionally on such people.

Have a list of expectations for someone who you would consider your partner. If they are not willing to meet those qualifications then don't sleep with them. They are using you for sex, and you are using them to soothe your loneliness, stop doing that if you want to be taken seriously. Also, remember that if you require someone else to be happy, then you will not get to be happy. First, you need to be happy on your own, only then can you attempt to be happy with someone else.

I may seem like a whore, but I'm not. I haven't slept with any of these guys. I've been raped twice. Technically in my heart I'm still a virgin because it wasn't consentual (however you spell it).

I can't find happiness at all. That's the problem.

I'm not trying to give you the third degree, but having non consensual sex twice doesn't quite sound like what you wrote here, so can you please clarify:
"I have a problem with liking older guys.... I have a problem because I like sex..... I was bullied through school because I'm bi."

I'm lost, too. You're 15, on birth control, raped twice - but these guys are friends.

What is the entire story?

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Originally Posted by JudyKayTee

I'm lost, too. You're 15, on birth control, raped twice - but these guys are friends.

What is the entire story?

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There's something called aquantaince rape. I would rather you just message me to get all the details if that's what you really want thought it doesn't really matter anymore. It's in the past.

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Originally Posted by joypulv

I'm not trying to give you the third degree, but having non consensual sex twice doesn't quite sound like what you wrote here, so can you please clarify:
"I have a problem with liking older guys.... I have a problem because I like sex..... I was bullied through school because I'm bi."

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I don't want any help anymore. I honestly can say I don't need it. I'm fine now. Everything's in the past. I'm moving in with my mom.

I've read your other posts - no, the problem isn't solved, the issue isn't over.

And if you read the AMHD rules conversations DON'T go off the boards.

emogirlheart, we have no interest in being at war with you. We don't even know you!
I for one think you are at war with yourself because of the war with your parents.
As someone who was horribly at odds with my mother (not my father, except for the fact that he did nothing to stop my mother), I would like to help sort out what is rebellion that is just hurting you vs. forming your own identity.
But if you don't want to, obviously that's the end of it.
Welcome back any time.

I obviously missed another of her rants?

It's perfectly fine :D I promise. I'm moving in with my mother.