I have been dating my girlfriend for 14 months now and we always talk about how we want to someday spend the rest of our lives together. We rarely fight and we always make time for each other on the weekends. I love her so much and she is always telling me I'm the perfect boy for her and that she will always be with me.
There is one big problem I have though and that is my sensitivity.
Today, my girlfriend had to make a presentation and I offered to make her a poster. She was grateful but I forgot to do it over the weekend (big exams coming up so it slipped my mind). It was not a poster that was needed at all, just a little bonus to her presentation. Today, she brought it up and she was a little annoyed that I forgot and this is where I went downhill.
Simple things like this simply crush me. I hate annoying her even a little bit and I feel miserable for the rest of the day. Then on the same day, I forgot to tell her that I wouldn't be at lunch. She was slightly annoyed at that, which made me feel 10 times worse. I want to be the best boyfriend I possibly can for her and it crushes me when I fall even just a little bit short.When this happens, I simply shut down. I don't feel like talking to anyone, especially her, because I feel sad and like a failure
We got into a fight about how it frustrates her so much when I shut down and she says my sensitiveness has nothing to do with it. I tried breaking out of my miserable state with her, but she made snappy comments at me which made me feel worse.
I know my sensitiveness makes me shut down and I barely talk to her when this happens, which understandably annoys and frustrates her.
She always tells me how perfect I am and I just want to be the best I can for her, but my sensitivity is not helping me. Even when she says things like "You put a little too much of "blank" into the food", I feel a jab of saddness for failing.
How can I be less sensitive? Am I trying too hard to be perfect for her?