Should I make the move or not?
Hey guys, me and my best friends aren’t so close anymore in fact we aren’t even friends, but the thing is she lives in my neighborhood and like we often see each other and it’s kind of weird. I lost her to someone I HATE so much and that she hated her. It’s ****ed up I know they are like so close and I’m kind of jealous I mean even though we aren’t friends anymore. Like please she’s still mine. Every time I see her with someone I’m sad. Jealous wishing it could be me. I miss her hugs. Her smell. Our stupid crazy stuff we do together. Everything.
But the thing that is hurting me the most is that it seems she doesn’t miss me. Like I don’t exist or something. Like she’s happy without me. I pretend to do that the same but I’m always wishing I could be with her too. I mean I made a couple of new friends and I love them. But she is one special girl. We both made huge mistakes that slowly made us fade apart. We tried fighting it, didn’t help much. I want to tell her I miss her. I can’t live without her. But I don’t want to show her I’m depressed like I need her which I do. Yes I may have said that I don’t want to be her friend anymore but it’s just because I was mad, sad... all I need is my sister back.
Something great happened for me today I wanted to tell her but then I remembered we don’t talk anymore. And here I started crying. Cheesy but true. All I know is her 'best friend' now, if someone would pay her to betray her she would do it but if someone told me I could meet Justin Beiber and betray her I wouldn’t and you guys should know Justin is my everything. And that’s how much I love and care for her.
Should I tell her? Try to move on? What should I do?