What's the meaning of it all? Drop out of school?
This past couple months have been both amazing and awful for me, to say the least. My life has been a roller coaster. I've tried the law of attraction, and everything else. But I just can't focus on school, and I'm somehow ruining all my relationships (family and friends). The very little self esteem I had growing up, has shot down the drain. One moment I'm on cloud nine, and the next, my heart feels so alone and decaying (Bi-Polar?). The one thing that's kept me from drowning through all this depression is my new found faith in God.
Anyway, I'm midway through getting my Bachelors in MicroBiology right now, working towards my life goal to be a pediatrician and work for Doctors Without Borders. But you know, life just isn't cutting it for me; I've lost all motivation. And I'm also rethinking whether I just want to go through the same motions as everyone else (Go to school, Get a job, Work Work Work). This is my one life to live. I want to escape all of this. I need a fresh start in life. See The World!
The Solution: I've been thinking about leaving California and going to join the French Foreign Legion. It'll give me discipline, and courage, and motivation, and... Then come back in five years (five years contract), and continue towards my goal!
The Cons: Well basically I'm probably not ever going to see my friends (the few) ever again, as these friendships are already dying. I'm going to be in my twenties, starting all over again in Los Angeles, to become a doctor which already takes 10 years minimum. Basically, I'm leaving this life behind, and nothing will be the same when I come back, which I might not be ready for.
-Should I join the Foreign Legion for five years?
Anyway, any help is appreciated..
Thanks y'all!