I had an abortion on December 22, 2012 and it didn't seem like a big deal when I was there because I felt like I didn't want my mother or grandmother to see my emotions but deep down I wanted to run in the complete opposite direction... my boyfriends mother didn't want me to keep it either but my father did , I never wanted to give it up at all , I was scared when I found out I was pregnant but I was excited an ecstatic at the fact that I was going to have a little one that would be mine for forever. I wanted to be a mother. Today on March 12 , 2013 I can say that ever since that day I have felt empty , depressed , suicidal , mad , angry... any emotions that you can think of... I feel dead inside and alone and I don't know what to do because I just want that feeling of comfort from my baby inside of my stomach being with me at all times. I want to get pregnant again sometimes but I don't want to make things harder on myself and I don't want to go through that stress from my parents... it's just the worst thing a mother could ever do is get rid of her child when it was our job to protect them in any way shape or form... it was our job . You will NEVER forget it it will literally follow you every where you go and once it happens it seems like you see babies everywhere and baby bumps... it's terrible