I love my husband very much he's my life I been with him 19 years but he doesn't love me he tells me daily that he not in love with me and I just take it as if he will change his mind. I have no friends of my own. He losted his mum and dad some time ago and is an only child. He's had met some one else but came back to me after 7 weeks.that was 3 years ago and says I need to get over it because if I had cheated he wouldn't of had me back I begged him to come back as I didn't won't to carry on with out him. I have two boys who are 18 and 16 who live a happy life. But me I cook clean and go to work a. I've lost who I am. His dad was a drinker and my husband is going the same way but he can not see this. He says I am fat and old and ugley and at times I wish I would die because the pain is so much don't worry I not going to. No one new about this lady he met because I didn't won't people thinking bad of him.we still live together just.he sometimes don't come home all night and when he does he tells me not to start and to shut up. Don't get me wrong I am not a push over and I say bad things to him just because he hurts me. Its like he's dead inside since his mum and dad died.my home is no longer a home I can not go out I just work clean and sleep please help me