I wish this could be a positive question but it is not.

I am a 20 year female with no money or health insurance. Nor do my parents to afford counseling.

I may be suffering from mild panic attacks, depression, and social anxiety. I also have very low confidence, self-esteem issues, and feelings of worthlessness. I am always angry at myself.

I can't look in the mirror without breaking down and crying.

My voice wavers as if I'm going to cry( which I am if don't hold it back)every-time I have to talk to someone.

I dread leaving the house. I have no friends. I can't leave the house anymore because I have no where to go. I have no money to go anywhere.

No one will hire me because I don't have confidence they want. I get extremely anxious talking to HR not only because I have to lie to get one, I can't seem to answer any question confidently without stuttering or crying.

I don't have any clothes to fit me. I got too fat for everything when I gained 100 pounds over the years.

I have been suffering from everything ever since I was 16.

I'm not suicidal yet. I'm not that brave.

I eat and sleep away the emptiness and loneliness I feel.

Anyone know where I can get help for this in Milwaukee, WI?

Yes. Go to a hospital ER to connect with a social worker. Call the county human services department and ask for a counselor. Or contact Catholic Charities or Lutheran Social Services to see if there is someone to help in your area. Or check with the UW campus near you for out-patient services. Or check with area priests and ministers who probably do counseling. Or call the reference desk at your local public library to ask for their input on who can help you.

Let me know how it's going.

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Yes. Go to a hospital ER to connect with a social worker. Call the county human services department and ask for a counselor. Or contact Catholic Charities or Lutheran Social Services to see if there is someone to help in your area. Or check with the UW campus near you for out-patient services. Or check with area priests and ministers who probably do counseling. Or call the reference desk at your local public library to ask for their input on who can help you.

Let me know how it's going.

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I think I am going to scare myself away from not going.

I'm nervous. What should I say?

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I think I am going to scare myself away from not going.

I'm nervous. What should I say?

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I'm not nervous at all! :)

*ring ring ring*

Hello, this is the county human resources office. How can I help you?

(Now you talk.)

Uhh.. don't know what to say seriously..
Umm.. I think I might be depressed.. do you uhh um no where I can get help or something?

I don't know what I am going to say.

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uhh..don't know what to say seriously..
umm..i think I might be depressed..do you uhh um no where I can get help or something?

I dont know what I am going to say.

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I gave you a list of possibilities to call. All would be low cost or free.

I am going to sit right here until you say something to me in answer to my "voice" on the phone.

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I gave you a list of possibilities to call. All would be low cost or free.

I am going to sit right here until you say something to me in answer to my "voice" on the phone.

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That was it I'm sorry. I forgot to put it in the voice thingy.

I can sit here and say I'm going to call but then I'm just going to do that below.

I'm going to pick up the phone..start panicking for about 20 minutes then dial the numbers stare for about 5; hover over the call button then quickly press end.

How about calling this number --

1-800-273-TALK (8255)

It's suicide prevention and also just talking and connecting to a counselor in your area. You will have to press 2 (I think) for English and wait a minute or two.

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How about calling this number --

1-800-273-TALK (8255)

It's suicide prevention and also just talking and connecting to a counselor in your area. You will have to press 2 (I think) for English and wait a minute or two.

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I'm not on the verge of killing, won't I be just wasting their time? While I'm calling someone else could be trying to connect and when they couldn't went and kill them self all because of me wasting a line. Couldn't do that to someone.

It's really not fair.

mental illness runs in my father's side of the family and it seems like I'm the one who was most vulnerable to it.

none of my sisters have problems with depression and anxiety.

not only that I'm the only one who is the fatest and ugliest.

my older sister is fat too but she carries it so well she looks like I star.

I dislike being around them they all so pretty and confident I don't know what happen to me


It makes me miserable everyday.

They always ask me why am I so negative, why I only wear sweat pants, why I never go anywhere, why I don't have a boyfriend, why I always wear only sweats or shirts 3x big then needed.

Then wonder why.. I can't tell them.

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I'm not on the verge of killing, won't I be just wasting their time? While I'm calling someone else could be trying to connect and when they couldn't went and kill them self all because of me wasting a line. couldn't do that to someone.

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You are soooooooooo funny!! Talk about excuses!!

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Then wonder why.. i can't tell them.

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Can't tell them what?

Don't laugh those excuses has severed me over over the years

And I can't tell them I need help. That I have issues
That I am jealous of them thatmajoirty of the time I hate myself, my looks, my personailty
That most of the time I just want someone to go somewhere with me to the park, go jog outside
Anything.. just for a little while. Stuff like that

I don't know

So let's get started getting this fixed.

By calling huh? I'm not a big brave dog wondergirl I can't call yet,
Going in person is something I can prefer to do.. can't hide anywhere heh

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by calling huh? I'm not a big brave dog wondergirl I can't call yet,
going in person is something I can prefer to do..can't hide anywhere heh

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So you will go in person to a counselor for an appointment, but refuse to call first?

You want me to make an appointment for you?

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So you will go in person to a counselor for an appointment, but refuse to call first?

You want me to make an appointment for you?

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Ouch.. refuse is such a harsh word more like... respectively decline.

Umm, no you do not need to make an appointment. The little pride I have won't let you even though that would be nice but I can't let you do that tis wrong and ugh..

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ouch.. refuse is such a harsh word more like...respectively decline.

umm, no you do not need to make an appointment. The little pride I have wont let you even though that would be nice but i can't let you do that tis wrong and ugh..

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SO

You want help because you know there is a problem

BUT

You won't call or go somewhere for help

NOR

Will you let me find help for you.

NOW WHAT?

I'll be waiting for you to show up in the morning. Don't go outside -- we've had a bit of snow. It's very pretty, though.

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SO

you want help because you know there is a problem

BUT

you won't call or go somewhere for help

NOR

will you let me find help for you.

NOW WHAT?

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I'm stupid OK. I don't understand my logic either >.<