Do I need therapy or professional help? What is wrong with me
It's been almost a year since me and my fiancé broke up. I've accepted the idea that we won't be together. Throughout our relationship he put me through hell. Always lied to me. And mentally abused me for 3 months after we broke up. I haven't been seeing anyone every since him. I notice that I pushed everybody away. I lean on crutches when it comes to me or my personal feelings. I overload myself with school and work so much that I have no time to eat. I have no days off. I choose this life because I'm scared to be left alone with my emotions. I feel like people aren't worthy. They will hurt me. That's why I'm scared of any other relationship. I have fear of trusting people. I got pushed in into a very dark corner. And I can't let myself out of it.