How to trust after husband has lied.
I have only been married for a month, and love my husband more then anything, or anyone. We are both recovering alcoholic/addicts, and in the past two years, he has drank on three separate occasions. Every time that he has drank, he has come back after very depressed and threatens to kill himself. He then admits that he has to go to meetings more, and that he must have issues. But, it's the same every time. He says all this after, and then after a couple months, he talks about how he'd love to drink again... which he is recently saying again. He says its different now, because we are married, and that he would never do that, but I think the novelty will ware off, and he'll be back at the booze again. He gets very upset when I say these things to him, and there is no use talking to him about it. He also goes to the casino from time to time, and spends money he dosen't have, and lies about that to. He's admitted to going, just not how much he has spent. Also, I hate him looking at porn on the computer, and he just continues to do it... Always saying he won't again. I feel like this is an issue with me, I just wish he would respect me more. I just don't know what to do... he won't go to counselling. We tried it, and it wore off after time. I just want to trust my husband, and give him the benefit of the doubt. I'm letting all these things consume my life, and it stops me from being happy. Please, any advise would be much appreciated...