I feel so alienated at my school
I feel so alienated at my college...
In high school I had a lot of friends! Most of whom I still hangout with till this day. It wasn't hard to get to know them because they were very friendly, but people at college I find are the exact opposite.
When I first entered college I had one friend from high school (we'll call her Andrea) who was coming with me and I thought I would just stick with her if no one else wanted me to talk with them, but then I met this one girl who seemed VERY eager to be my friend so I started talking to her too (we'll call her Taylor). She eventually became friends with both me and Andrea, we ate lunch in the cafeteria together most days but after first year things began to change DRASTICALLY!
Taylor became sort of stand offish towards me. She was still friends with Andrea. I tried to talk to new people but eventually Taylor came in. We went out for lunch as a group a couple of times but whenever I would talk they would all just stare at me and say nothing.
I'm in my third and final year now and Taylor has stopped talking to me completely. When I try to talk to her she avoids eye contact and occasionally replies with snide comments. Me and Andrea have drifted apart too. Now it seems like Taylor has become very popular. She will plan lunch or dinner with everyone else in the class but she never asks me if I want to join anymore, no one even acknowledges my existence. My only friend in college now is a woman who is much older than me. I miss Andrea, but she seems so disengaged when she talks to me.
I must add that I am in a VERY competitive program (with very few students) and I think maybe Taylor is jealous of me. She became less friendly when I started receiving positive attention for my work.
I only have one year to go. What do you think I should do here? Should I try to talk to people in class or should I give up on them and just stick to my high school friends?