Help! I can't get over my ex
It has been six months and I was the one who initially said I was leaving but then he called the cops and got a restraining order because I got angry because he wouldn't take his meds! He has paranoid Personility disorder and is very ill bit tolerable when he takes them. We were together for two years, planning our life together, engaged and actually moved out of state and bought a house. He always thought we were being followed because he won a HUGE settlement for being abused as a child. We went to school together but didn't see each other for 30 years after graduating. We are both 50 years old, both admit to loving each other and are Soulmates. But he lost his trust for me when I finally snapped on him. I held it in for way too long.. We went five months without talking and he finally contacted me and have been texting, emailing and Facebook messages, I mean hundreds and hundred of messages in one month. I want to try again but I spilled my heart way too much buy trying to convince him how much I love him I and he says he has a girlfriend but she doesn't mean anything to him.. So then one month before he contact me I got assaulted by a drunk guy and he pushed me and blew out my knee and can't work can't surf and am depressed. I know I shouldn't let other people control my happiness but this guy broke me by making me leave the house I picked out, I was training his dogs and we were happy. Don't get it. He bought the house but I did all the work.. So I'm frustrated because I would feel so much better if he was back in my life.. Ugh
