I been drunk for quite sometimes , I did had blackout but I never rmember having sex I promise... and I stopped, I realized how awful alcohol is/... well... at our first attempt it was his first time and so was mine.. my boyfriend and I decided to do the deed the whole nyt in his place but we didn't succeed he wasn't successful in penetrating his penis ,it was also very dark.. months later we did the deed again and again he failed to penetrate his.. after that he did finger me.. nyt later we tried again it was also very dark when he tried to pushed I felt in so much pain so we stopped... later the next nights he always fingers me... months later we tried again and I was in shock because he did penetrate his so easily and there were no bleeding .I am so furious,. why that very nyt he did easily penetrate his to mine and why no bleeding happen?. now his accusing me of me not being a virgin.. I cried a lot,I kills me inside because I know I didn't made anything stupid after our first attempt.. pls help

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I had this accident in a bicycle when I was a child (I haven't had my period yet), and I saw a small spot of blood into my panty, and I fell sore when I urinated... could this be also a cause of me not to bleed by that very nyt? Please help.. I'm so stress... my boyfriend accuses me of being not a virgin and maybe I had sex when I had a blackout, but promised I never did.I never did remember doing it.. in my mind it was my boyfriend who took my virginty but he seems not to believed me... I hurts a lot , I love my boyfriend so much, he doubting me feels like it's the end of my world... huhuhu

I just want your opinion.. I'm I a virgin when we had sex? Please thanks

You attempted to have sex several times, the one time you had pain, he could have penetrated at that point also.

And what in the heck has being dark have to do with it ? It is not like the target is 10 feet away to hit it.

Exactly how old are the two of you, this honestly sounds like 12 year olds writing this.

But anyone should know that many women or girls do not bleed or even have a lot of pain when they have sex for the first time, The hymen would have been broken, but masturbation, by finger penetration or a dozen other things.

Did you have sex when passed out, who knows, happens all the time.

Where you a virgin before having sex that time, no one knows, it is obvious you are not even sure, so we don't know at all.

But it really should not matter, if a couple loves each other and of course now you are not for sure.

I had this accident in a bicycle when I was a child (I haven't had my period yet), and I saw a small spot of blood into my panty, and I fell sore when I urinated... could this be also a cause of me not to bleed by that very nyt?. and the tym I been drunk I never feel sore or different when I woke up, and I'm all dress, no stain of blood and what so ever so I think nothing could had happened that night.. I do think his the one who took my virginty ,but he seems not to believd in me ,by the way I'm 20 yrs old

Its obvious he has broken you with his fingers over time

When you have drunken sex you never know 100% what happened - or, for that matter, how or why.

If you were there, having sex, and you don't remember/know, how would we?