I have major anxiety and ptsd I have two babies and a husband that wants a divorce I have been evicted 3 times in the past 3 years and have spent most of that time in homeless shelters I can't talk to anyone because they all make me feel worse I keep failing over and over again I am so frustrated with everything and everyone I am losing it and I just need someone to talk to I know I am doing everything I can but I am not on my meds I have to go through the whole process again another stranger to judge me and treat me like a labrat.

You aren't going to resolve anything until you go back on your meds... they put you on them because you need them... that isn't being a lab rat. Its treating a problem.

That may be true but that is also another consuming issue I am trying to work out my insurance is from the county and I am down there 3 days out of the week trying to have them turn it back on not to mention waiting for daycare since October so I can go to my appointments. I just feel like a number that isn't right. I do have a plan this time I am not going to go get a full-time good paying job again so they can drop me from everything again I know my value and I never thought that minimum was it that's probably one of the reasons I need help in the first place

Also most times they have to experiment with different medication to find the right ones for you. Everyone is different hence why there is no one med for all combo. If you are urgent and having a breakdown head to your nearest emergency room to get immediate care. Go back on your meds and look into getting into therapy to learn coping mechanisms so you can get some control back over your health.
I too was on medication and did the lets go off medication route. It ended badly for me and I would strongly advise anyone not to try it. If you had a heart issue would you go off your medication? Mental health issues are the same as physical issues sometimes you need medication. Nothing wrong with that at all.

Just so you know it was not voluntary that I went off them at first I was unable to take them due to pregnancy 2 of them back to back then a month after there were complications had surgery once I got better I went to work to try and get out of the shelter. I just feel so trapped. I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. I will do Anything to never go back there again I have even relocated to try to get as far away from there as possible.

When you had to go off medication did the doctor give you any coping mechanisms or time frames until you could go back on them. What was the treatment plan? Can you go to a doctor now to find out your options so you don't feel like you are having a breakdown?

Well during the last pregnancy I went back to the state I came from MN all my medical info is in Co I left Because the shelter there had bedbugs I dropped everything and left. There was a treatment plan but once they found out I had bedbugs they said that my appointments would be placed on hold until the problem was resolved everywhere I went people acted like I had the pleage after I left they found a nest inside my wall. No one wanted to help.