Obssessive, smothering boyfriend.
I've been going out with my boyfriend for a year and a half, he was a very jealous guy and he wudnt like it when guys complimented me and the fact that I had many guy friends made him go crazy... I was also a flirty girl but I knew my limits and ever since being with him I never rele flirted around. Buh he is verry obssessive, he would have his friends spying on me all the time and his friends would tell him what I'm doing and who I'm with and so on.. Ive gotten to the point where I wasn't even allowed to talk or hang out with my guy friends and whenever I wanted space he'd think I don't love him or anything.. I ve broken up with him several times and no matter what he'd beg and cry for me to stay, he's given me so many things and so many letters and he'd always talk about the future, how I'm going to marry him and have kids.. :| I'm only 16!. I always tell him to focuse on what we have now, buh then he thinks I don't want to be with him.. I remember he use to check my computer's chat logs where my conversations would be saved and he'd read them, at times he'd want to check my emails too.. and just recently his own mother read my diary that I left there when I went to a trip with them and told my boyfriend that I had written a lot of things about him and so on... the fact that his own mother did that made me feel rele angry because out of all people I didn't expect that.. so now I have lost all my trust in them.. today he's told me that when my birthday comes, he was going to propose to me, and that's also going to be 2 yrs being together.. buh I stopped him after a long talk.. im not very happy being in this relationship.. I want out of it buh he never gets the point and I feel so depressed and as if I'm stuck... I can't even smile anymore... Right now he is currently in europe and he's coming back to canada in June after my exams.. im scared because I prefer he stays with his parents in europe, and when he comes back I won't have any space.. I asked for so many breaks so I can clear my head buh he would always interfere by calling me every 10 minutes that my mom had no choice buh to answer and no excuse would work.. im very frustrated and I wish I was strong enough to tell him I don't want to be in this relationship anymore, he does anything for me to stay, hed buy me clothes, jewelry, flowers, anything... and I feel so guilty that its also keeping me from breaking up... Im young at the moment and I rele don't want him to propose to me when I'm 17... I have so much ahead of me and I had spent a year and half with him without taking one breath, I had done so much for him because I feel obligated to stay with him... I rele need help... :(